Monday, August 27, 2012
Can you remember the best job you ever had? Why was it great? Why did you leave that job? Have you tried to re-create it? The best job I have ever had is the one I have had for the past 3 years. I love being a stay at home Mom. It's the hardest job I have ever had. It is the most rewarding job I have ever had. You've heard all of this from other parents before. It's all true. There is no delayed gratification or worrying that I am wasting my time. This job has all the perks. I can see progress in 4D. I can see my son blossoming. Hugs, kisses, wrestling, running through sprinklers, singing, jumping, dancing, and more, much more are on the daily menu. I get to provide medical care, emotional therapy, personal training, nutritional advice, cooking, maid service, transportation, teaching, you name it. I have an amazing 2 year old (soon to be three) who makes sure that I know that he would be better off (eh-hem...we would be better because he would be less cranky), if we are running around from sun up to sun down. To say that he is active is an understatement. I spend his nap researching what fun places we should go so he can learn and experience new things. There is so much of this world I want to show him. He is in this explosive growth phase right now. He is picking up everything and consuming and deciphering new information like crazy. I love how he sees the world. He is so easily amused. He loves so easily. He forgives so easily. A new friend at the park could shove him (or he does that to a new friend) and the next minute they are hugging and running through the playground. The simplest of things are his delights. I wish that a card board box and a playground would have the same effect on me. Life would be so much easier, lol. He is happy and joyful. He is so friendly and outgoing. He is such a blessing. I am ridiculously grateful to be his Mom. Raising children that are healthy emotionally, spiritually and physically is one of the most important jobs in this world! But what about paying the bills? So, circumstances have changed and being a staying at home that teaches yoga a couple times per week won't cut it anymore. It's time for me to flex my business chops (did I even use that phrase correctly, lol)... I need to pay the bills and be the best Mom I can be. I know I can't 'do it all'...but I do want to do the best I can. I am putting 'it out there' in prayer and positive thoughts that I am looking for the next right step. I have so many ideas. The ones I like the best seem too risky. The traditional ones seem too boring. The easy ones seem too low paying. Wherever your faith is at, just go with me on this statement...maybe I am low balling my higher power. Maybe God has something in store for me that I hadn't dreamt of? Maybe I keep trying things that are too small? Maybe I am just way off base? I am praying for neon blinking signs of direction. With a bunch of emotional circumstances in my life right now...I fear that my clarity, when it comes to my career that is, may be off. So, I am looking for direction. So, what is right? What to do? Where to go? What is the best thing for me and my family? What is my next step? Do we live in Chicago? I have family there and it's cheaper to live here. There is a decent job market here. I have good friends here. I grew up here. I like 'some' of the seasons. But, I have made my home in California. I LOVE California. I hate how expensive it is and that the job market always seems less than desirable no matter what is happening with the economy. I have family that is around 100 miles away. I have good friends here too. Could I convince more family to move here??? The tilt-a-whirl of thoughts that I pretend is brainstorming is as follows, (these are my favorites anyway): Still toying with going back to school for nutrition...but also thinking about education. Maybe I start a preschool? Open a yoga studio and offer nutrition services too? Combine them...yoga studio, preschool, kids yoga, nutrition for adults, nutrition for schools... I want a great career. A career that pays well, that makes a difference, gives back to the community and allows freedom and flexibility so I can spend time with my son...I am asking a lot. But why not. 1 - what do I feel the most peace about...what path seems the most supported by loving, wise people in my life. 2 - what serves my family best... 3 - what would I regret not doing... 4 - what are the risks versus the rewards. If you are thinking about starting a business too, redirecting your career, going back to school... (or if anything I am writing about sounds interesting), let me know your thoughts and ideas. Plus, I could always use a business partner. Now, lots to ponder, meditate and pray on. If you see me in yoga class and I look too serious, remind me to smile. Praying for peace that surpasses understanding. Until next time, sweet dreams!